27March2009

Ehem, a tiring day. I stayed in the college thought I do not have class for today,which happens rarely.Most of the collegemates or schoolmates/coursemates have actually gone home. Well, no matter how i still need to stay as I'm having 2 meetings with my group members today.

After submitting the beloved data structure lab( which suffers me a lot =.=), I meet with my MAD project members(MAD stands for Multimedia Application Development). The dateline is actually around the corner. We only have maximum 2 weeks time left before the submission or presentation on the last week, whih falls on 14 April 2009. We are in a pretty rush indeed. We still haven't figure out how exactly the flash and photoshop can help in this project etc. The worst is, I dunno y my laptop fails to install the flash and photoshop for CS4 version. It keeps on showing "Product liciense expired" even someone offer me the crack. duh! We need to figure out the script and record narration for the clip as well. I wonder when can we finish everything...

After backing from the meeting, I try to start with my Data Structure, the subject that I lack of confidence the most for this semester. My basic, which is the Programming 1 was weak. Frankly, I can't really get what the lecturer conducting throughout the whole semester. I dun really know that how many percent of the lecture that I can understand fully. The credit hour for this subject is relatively high compares to the others,which means it will definately affects my pointer if I do not score well for this. No matter what I must work hard for this subject. The coming Monday will be our Test2. I really hope that I can score well... Only 1 month left for the final as well. Hopefully I can keep on my effort until the end of the final. I can do it.! I can do it through Him who gives me strength! add oil!

At 3pm, I have another session with my English Professional Writing class member. We have to conduct a meeting as our presentation during the class on Monday.Hopefully we will hav a good presentation on Monday.

I contiued with my data structure after the 2nd meeting. I could just manage to finisg=h the ArrayList till now. I have more topics to cover. Though the topics covered for the Monday test are just LinkedList,Stack and Queue. But who knows? I just worried that the question will included interface, inheritance,generic. I still don't have a clear picture for those things...

We will be having a farewell for the seniors or those who no longer stay in the college for the next semester 8pm later. I saw sis Sarah starts preparing delicious food for us from the evening. Erm, however, I don't think many people will show up.

Basically, this is how I spend my day in the college alone today...

The coming weeks will be packed and busy for me, I believe. 30 March: Data Structure Test, Meeting Presentation
2 April : MAD LAb Test
3 April : WXES 1115 Project Summision, HE presentation (though is not presented by me)
9 April : MAD Project Summision

Gosh!!!I forgot something!!!! Alamak! The interpretation that I promised someone!==!!!

My worries

I have to admit, I did a very stupid mistake last sem,letting me drop in such a difficult circumstaces now. I have to chase my CGPA so hard this sem. By the time I realise , it was too late as it's about to have my 2nd sem final.

Secondly, my college application. I don't know whether I still have a chance to stay for next sem. I knew that I have participated very few activities in my college. At first, I was reluctant to stay any longer due to bad food choice etc. Somehow, I suddenly feel that it's much more convinient for me to stay in the college. Besides, I haven't achieve what I promised myself in the beginning of my 1st sem. I have nearly forget what I said to myself. I used to tell myself. I must grab this opportunity to mix or work with people of other ethnics since I don't have such chances in the past. However, I'm not sure whether I still can get it. Futhermore, my CGPA. I worried that it will be my obstacles for applying the college for next year.

I'm in a struggle now. I feel like I have betray or "putting aeroplane " on my friend. I used to say I may move out if I can't get the college. Though I have never ever give my friend a very confirm promise that I must move out. I feel guilty an feeling I have done something sorry to her. I may mess up her plan, break down her hope, and bring trouble to her...

Shall apply for other colleges as well for my living assurerance? Shall I try to apply for the PM (Pembantu Mahasiswa) for the sack of increasing my probability of getting to stay in the college again?

Struggle struggle struggle

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Yes, I want to have a brand new start for everything seriously. This is my promise to You and myself. I have been being not serious and getting lazier and lazier for years.

It's time for me to look in everything seriously. Studies, ministry, attitude and even my whole life.

This is my promise.

Help and guide me all the way long.

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I don't know why I feel like blogging in English recently. Maybe because of the environment I'm in now. I attend lecture in English, have to learn to communicate with other ethnics or some international students in English. Sometimes I just feel like I'm thinking in English as well ( Though my english is not that good). The fact is I can't deny that my chinese keeps rolling down the hill T.T. What a sad story=.=

Ehem so let's have a start in English now. At the same time, I manage to sharpen my "blunt" English,haha!

Anyhow, sorry if my English is too confusing or I can't describe the thing clearly with it.

Happy adventure....^^