Dear God,
here I pray
Do not let my heart die
No matter what
I know there's a lot of changes needed.
I know I'm lacking of
I know I've been empty for sometimes
Not growing after a stage
I am stucked
And I need you dearly right now
I need to be filled by You
Refreshing everything related to me
Not a show
Not an event
Please refresh me
Instilled me with vision and dreams

L or M

Dear God,

Which is the path that I should choose?

Am I in the right path?

Shall I go on what my desire goes?

Isit the one you prepare for me?

Is this thought from You?

I have 1 year left

Should I take that?

Is it from You

Or my own desire?

Is the feeling right now from You?

Or my own greediness or self desire?

But if it is not from You

why am I there?

I doubted.

Is this the dream You have given to me?

I feel that it might be Yours

else why do we have the chance or why we have this?

Yet,

I still doubted

I'm a bit confused

Standing in front of a junction

Not knowing which to choose

Which lifestyle?

If I were to choose M,

I lost L

But if I choose L

I might lost M

L or M?

Which is from You?

I can't differentiate~

Oh God,

Please speak to me clearly

I need the answer from You

You know I'm in Your hand

You have my destiny

You know the best for me

Please do show me

I wanna walk in Your guide and Your path

I just want to be in Your plan

I have 1 year left

Please tell me which is Your choice for me

What can I do in 1 year time

A Letter to You

Father...

You are forever faithful

Here by I ask for ur shelter

Lord,

Please do guide me

Lead me in every path

You said You understand every part of me

Even those I cold not understand

You can understand it

father

I know that I'm weak

There are lots of changes that I need to make

There are decisions to make

Please guide me all the way

Lord, I really need Your strength to walk further

I'm strengthless

I really need a break

To stick close to You

I need a time to quiet myself

before You

I need to listen from You

Else I cant walk any further

I need You dearly

To look for the destiny and the mission You have given to me

Give me wisdom on time management

Give me strength to walk

I do not hope that I am the obstacles for Your mighty work to stop

I wish to walk more for You

I wish what I see can be achieve

Tell me which way should I go further more

My God my Lord

Holy Spirit please guide me~

I want to soar like an Eagle with You above every storm~

I couldn't understand why I struggle that much~

Lord please guide me Your way

Please give me passion

Please teach me how to give with a cheerful heart

Aren't serving You the most wonderful thing in the world?

Aren't You beside us?

Aren't you want us to have abundance life in us?

Please help me~ T.T

I need to rest in Your peace~

Undescribable Feeling

I don't know what am I doing... I have no idea on what I feel...

I feel reluctant... reluctant in doing anything... I wish to hide myself... I wish to dissapear at this moment...

I wish to a place where no one knows me...

....

Unreasonable...
Unpredictable...
Undescribable...
Unknown...

heart still bleeding...Some of the photos cant be recovered T.T
miracle for getting back is nearly zero...
still in pain a, God.... T.T
pls heal me n bring me out...
I'm feeling myself the stupiest ever....=.=
Speechless...

A4J

A4J conference starts tomorrow...

My heart is complicated now, struggling...

I didn't register as a camper this year... I think I'm gonna miss sth great... Hmmm... Suddenly thought of, Can I atend aj for the next year? I may be in Industrial Training for this period... =.= Anyhow,I 'll just try to attend the night service...

Dear God, please speak to me eventhough I may just attend for the night service... I hope that I will not miss sth great....PLEASE....

Lord, I'm frustrated and moody now... Feeling stress as well... There are so many things to do...

I feel that I'm so tiny and weak... I don't know what I can do. I found that my faith is very very little. I found that I can't really believe in myself. I have worries towards my ability. Am I capable for this? I'm questioning myself... I hate this side of me... Inconfident... Anxious and uncontrolable....